A couple of
weeks ago, I read an article by a man named Ed Morrissey. He had recently become an Extraordinary
Minister of Holy Communion in the Catholic Church. The article did not explain what that is, but I take it that it
qualifies him to be what in the United Methodist Church we would call a
communion steward. In the article, Mr.
Morrissey described the emotions he felt when he served communion for the first
time. The article can be found here.
Reading the
article, I was reminded of the first time I gave communion to a
congregation. I had started seminary,
but had not received an appointment in the United Methodist Church yet. Instead, I was serving as an interim pastor
in the United Churches of Christ of Wessington Springs and Templeton. I was never a member of the United Church of
Christ, but as an interim pastor there, I was able to get a license which
allowed me to give communion there.
I still
remember how I felt the first Sunday I gave communion in those churches. I was every bit as nervous as Ed Morrissey
says he was, if not more so. Part of
that was just the technical aspects of it.
There is a substantial liturgy involved, after all, and I didn’t want to
stumble around looking like a fool.
There was more to my nervousness than that, though.
The reason
I felt so nervous about giving communion was that I felt so unworthy to do
so. What did I think I was doing up
there? What right did I have to be
giving Holy Communion? I was going to
say some words, give people some bread and some grape juice, and that was
somehow going to make this into something meaningful and important? This was going to somehow be one of God’s
means of grace? Who did I think I was,
anyway?
Eventually,
though I came to realize something. The
reason I felt so unworthy is that I was.
I still am. So is every other
pastor, minister, priest, or anyone else who offers Holy Communion to
someone. My saying some words does
nothing. My giving people bread and
grape juice does nothing. I have no
right to pretend otherwise.
Despite
that, though, something still happens.
It has nothing to do with me. It
has everything to do with God.
God somehow
uses me, just like God somehow uses everyone else of any other Christian faith
who gives Holy Communion. Despite our
unworthiness, God still uses us to give instruments of God’s grace to
people. God also, despite our
unworthiness, gives grace to each of us who takes Holy Communion. On both ends of the sacrament, nothing
happens because of who we are.
Everything happens because of who God is.
It is a
privilege for me to be allowed to give Holy Communion. It is a privilege for each of us to be
allowed to take it. When we have
Communion next Sunday, let’s thank God for that privilege and open our hearts
to receive God’s grace.
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