I wrote a week or so ago about the fact that our parish was without a secretary. Well, that has been remedied. We now have a new secretary, and I’m sure she’s going to do a fine job.
While I didn’t mind doing the secretarial work that much, I am also very relieved that I don’t have to do it any more. The biggest problem for me in having to be the secretary (office machines aside) was that it seemed like I could never get out of the office. Between the secretarial work and my regular work, it seemed like I was stuck inside by myself all the time, rather than being able to get out and be with people.
What that did for me was make me aware of a significant change in myself. It was not that long ago that I was okay with spending significant amounts of time by myself. Not only did I not dislike that, I really rather enjoyed it. I looked forward to times when I could just be alone, whether it was to do work or to just relax.
Now, I find that I don’t like that very much. When I was spending time by myself, plugging away in the office, I started feeling really tired. At first, I thought that was just because I wasn’t getting enough sleep. Then I noticed that, whenever I spent a little time with someone else, I felt a lot better. I was energized. I was alert. I was happier.
What I realized was that I was drawing energy from the people I was with. They were recharging my batteries. I was getting fired up from being with them. It was not anything in particular that anyone said or did that made this happen. It was just the fact that I was interacting with other people.
Unless you’ve known me for a long time, you may not realize what a huge change this is for me. The main thing about it is that it’s going to make a significant difference in the way I look at myself. I’ve always considered myself as somewhat of a loner. Now, at age fifty-three, I suddenly discovered that I’m a people person. That’s a pretty substantial change in my self-image.
This is not a change that happened overnight, of course. I’m sure it’s been happening for years. It’s just that it was happening so gradually I never really noticed it before. Now I have.
If there’s a faith component to this, it’s that God never stops working on us, no matter what our age is. If I can go from being a loner to being a people person at my age, what other changes might God have in store for me? And what changes might God have in store for you?
So I guess I’m people person now. How about that?
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